The Anniversary

He didn't switch off the lights this time.
He wanted to see
Her blazing, under his heat.
As he kept thrusting his rage.
He knew she will sustain.

Coz if it was him that she craved
It was her who endured his pleasurable pain.
He looked at her, while she shut her eyes
That's the way they found their reflections.

They realised
It was them.
It had to be them, ultimately
No one else equalled their passion.
That's how they celebrated their anniversary.

Our incomplete story

Ours forever will remain an incomplete story

Whether it was our destiny

Or was it we were never meant to be

I don't try to fix the jigsaw anymore

For we were meant to remain

An incomplete story.

Let it be, 

As it is between us

I don't want anything else

Love I confused it to be

Lust being your sole interest

But I couldn't help

I am contended with whatever I have with you

No love, no commitment

Only lust, coz we have realized none can satisfy us

And that's how we will remain incomplete.

©LR

You are the one

I met someone to get over you
But couldn't.
You are still there somewhere.
By now you must have met countless
Me being just another flesh,
Another experience.

For me, I am back to my nothingness.
Every touch is bland without you.
Was it love, I don't care
After all that disrespect.

I miss you
Maybe I will always
No matter who goes or stays.

You were the one!

The Last Laugh

Body is trembling

That rage, that power!!

We started with a kiss, against the wall.

He was ready...

And we shifted to the bed.

He inserted his meat,

I sucked him inside my vortex.

And when he unhooked my lingerie

He saw the marks.

Who has done this to you, he asked.

I was evasive

The expression on his face

Funereal

He kept asking while ripping me apart

He was furious!

This was my woman

How could it be someone else

I lied it was my hubby

He wasn't convinced

He took me from sideways

Our bodies were in symphony.

Flesh to flesh

As I rode him

I bent down to lick his ears.

He was feeble with my quest.

We sat cross legged

Our sexes ingrained in each other

Playing

He was befuddled

Who can it be other than me

Minutes swept into hours

One session, then another

With poses swimming

Finally we were done!

He pleaded, please tell the name

I smiled and said it's your friend

What!! he exclaimed.

I confessed

And we had a hearty laugh

About how we all know about each other.

But the last laugh

Who is gonna have.

©LR

No more

I can't return back to you
To us anymore
You were all that I ever desired
But...

It's a loss for both of us
We won't find us in any other.
You know, so do I
But...

I still miss you
Dunno what it was between us
Dunno why I still can't get over
You are what I will crave forever.
But...
I won't come back to you my love.
No more.

That Night

She was raging when we made love.
Unrestrained, as if she was anticipating the moment.

Ever since I moved to her house.
She clouded my thoughts.
Whenever she used to come to the terrace to dry clothes.
Her presence electrified the ambience.
The aroma of her virginal flesh,
The glistening drops dripping from her lusterous tresses
Her saree still damp with moisture
She was a sight so sensuous.

How I craved to take her right there.
Under the nude skies
With the clothes billowing in the air
Covering and uncovering us with modesty
Alas, my anguish kept escalating with every passing days.

Till that night
When the power had gone off.

I was loitering in the terrace
When she came upstairs
Our eyes regarded each other's presence.
She went ahead and stood near the railing.
Her contours dreamy in the shadowy moonlight.

Gathering my courage, I stood beside her.
We stood there with the sexual tension lurking
As I slipped my fingers in hers
She stood motionless.
Her palms so warm to my trembling nerves.

I went behind and cradled her
Liberating her tresses, inhaling it's fragrance
I nestled in her neck.
Unbuttoning her blouse, I cupped her luxuriant breasts.
She stirred and turned towards me
Her eyes dreamy, her flesh feverish
She pushed me on the parapet while unshackling my bulge.
And bent down.

Seizing my existence completely
Soft moans escaped from within
I tried to find words but was lost in her expanse
Amongst the twinkling stars.

Before I could burst, I dragged her closer
Sitting cross legged on the parapet
Sensual energy passing through glistening pores
We kept looking at each other
Searching for some love, for some meanings
But it was only lust that was simmering.

Grinding her hips on mine
Her velvety skin coating me with the finest of wine
Hearts drumming against each other
I diffused somewhere in her.

A tentative whisper of her name
Consummated the night.

©LR

Don't say

Don't say 'I love you' when you don't mean it
Don't say 'I want you' as per your convenience
Don't say 'I miss you' when your desires overwhelms.

Don't say anything
Just prove it
If ever I meant anything to you, till date.

Her space

There was light

There was darkness

But she chose the latter

For the glare blinded her

And in darkness she twinkled

Mystical in her existence

Distancing from emotions and situations

She found her space

Where she breathed in silence.

©LR

Chosen ashes

The fire rages in the wilderness with feral intensity
Consuming the purposeless
They draw towards her
As the unforgiving winds escalate the temperature.
She selects who will be her ashes.

Self prisoned

A solitary prisoner I was
And have remained so
As people come and go.

Experiences pushed me further into solitude Questioning my life's purpose.

As I cautiously open a window
The turbulence everywhere
Clutters my soul.

Forgive me

Forgive me for falling in love
Forgive me for pouring my heart
Forgive me for assuming you to be the one
I perpetually sought.

Forgive me, but I can't return back
After all that I have suffered.

I miss us

I miss us
In the promises we made
In hushed breathes
In the colours we painted
In the moments we created.
I will always miss us.

My Standards

My standards are only mine

Whether I smoke

Or drink wine

Whether I love

Or select a partner in crime

My standards, remains mine

Yours, who cares!

©LR

Be There

You are there somewhere
I see you everyday
As you do
But the chasm between us is beyond repair.
I wish to accept you back just as a stranger
But I know, you still have the capacity to hurt me again.
So be there.

The illusion

Expressions passed in that second
I didn't know who you were
But those hissing flames haunts me till date.
How I wish to make love to their depths
Even if you are just an illusion.

When they met

It rained whenever they met
Coz the universe conspired to hide their tears

What next

There are people at home, we can't, he stressed.

But she wasn't listening

All that she wanted was him!

She led him towards the dimly lit staircase

Away from the frenzy

And knelt, unzipping him

Before he could complain

Lava was her core

As she seized him there

He dropped his defences

A mist coated his specs

He threw it somewhere

And brought his lips, to hers

The look of conquest in her eyes

While she slyly smiled

He didn't care what was in her mind

Loosening her tresses, he laid her on the stairs

And parted her thighs

Her juices were copious

He entered, but couldn't find her

She was an ocean of lust.

As he slaved his way

One of the fantasy consummated, she thought

What next?

©LR

I was and am the woman!

None shall participate

Only watch

You and me

And the audience.

For that will be my revenge!

As I make love to you in rage

You plead for mercy

But there's no escape

Possessed, I ride on you

As you hold my waist.

Watch me as I ride

So that you register me in your mind.

Never mess with a tigress

Pleasure I derive,

As the audience is tormented

Let him realize what he lost.

Coz I was the woman

I will be the woman

Always

©LR

Still waiting

As I muse in solitude
Watching the pelting downpour
I wish you here beside me, in silence
Soaking the dew of the showers

Seven years have passed between us
Somewhere, still I yearn for you
Not as a lover, not for any euphoric adventure
But for your soothing presence
Only once, before I am submerged in earthy core.

Somewhere, you are there.
Dunno why after all these years
I am still waiting...

No more love, no more pain

Wish a sorry could erase the hurt
Wish apologies could soak the tears.

Never push anyone to the point of no return.
But that's precisely what you have done.
You have shredded my heart into smithereens.

What was my fault
If I fell in love
I didn't expect anything in return
Except for a drop of respect.

Countless colours, I never craved
Desires, all that was left.
But you smothered it with your excruciating abuses!

I see you there, always
But my feelings are dead somewhere.
No more love,
No more pain!

As I wait

I slip into nudity every night
Hoping you will arrive
But it's always the darkness that slips by
And when my moon fades in the sunrise
I drape a layer to hide from life.

Game of powers

Who are you 

Who haunts my dreams

Why do you brazenly come close to me

Taking me with your aggression

Trying to douse me 

With your passion

I resist

You persist

Pushing me against the concrete

I bite your flesh

But that only ignites

You invade

As we penetrate 

Each other eyes

It becomes a challenge of powers

You keep thrusting

Yet a moan doesn't escape my lips

Suddenly you release me

A chasm of seconds 

Becomes an eternity

I push you against the wall

And go down on my knees

That's it

I won

The game of powers.

©LR

Let it be

He professes, I am in love with you.
She replies, you know I can't reciprocate

He says, I will continue to.
She sighs, up to you.

He complains, you always take the decision.
She replies, do I have any choice?

He persists, break the barriers.
She stresses, no I have to protect myself from hurt.

He assures, I won't hurt you for sure.
She says, all said the same before.

He states, I won't.
She concludes, let it be as it is between us.

Our beats

Lemme go, she said.
Where will you go, he asked.

Away from you, she replied.
How far is the away, he questioned.

I don't know, she dismissed him.
Then lemme carry you there, he pressed.

For when your beats thud against mine,
You will realize
That it's our joint beats
That has kept us alive.

© LR

Never forget

Why do we forgive people
Someone who doesn't value your worth
Someone whose reckless spirits questions your accord
Someone who blabbers for a crowd
Someone who can be unreasonably vicious

We ignore and move on
Is it a compromise with self
Is it a sign of weakness

Moving on, is a sign of valour
Forgiving, a testament of evolving
But some chapters are better to be burnt.
Coz if you don't, they will keep tormenting

But how do you earse memories?
They continue to haunt
They too will die a slow death
Till then,
Forgive but never forget what it cost.

Between you and me

There's something between you and me
I tried to find words to define us
All that I found was love.

But that wasn't us.
Was it?

Because we had met for a purpose.
Or was it our destiny
To meet and depart.

But there was something special between us
Even if I can't find words...or us.

Everything she gave

Power is alluring, he said.
She gave him the power to exercise.

Lust is so luring, he yearned
She showered him with bounteous flesh.

Fame it is that I crave, he complained
She guided him in that direction.

He had it all
But still empty.
What did he miss,
Maybe love.
By the time he realised,
She had left.
For her own good.

Finally it was them

They sat in silence
They didn't have words to vent
Everything just evanished when they met

They looked at each other
Eyes brimming with heart ache
All the months they lost
Their flesh and blood
So much of their blossoming empire
All gone for a pearl of suspicion.

They sat in silence
For they were spent, without each other
They didn't need words
They couldn't afford further distance.

For it was finally them, at moment
And no one else.

Murky waters

Whenever I made love to the daughter

I pinned for the mother

And when I slept with the mother

I yearned for the daughter

It was time to blend 

All of us together

The stage was set

When twilight trickled from the floating curtains

We formed a triangle of nudeness

I initiated by pulling them on my lap

And fondling their breasts

Gradually they relaxed to my melting touch

The daughter knelt

And freed me from chains

The mother stroked my ears with feathering kisses

I was about to burst

For I was literally being raped.

We moved to the comfort of the bed

I dipped my fingers in the daughter's crevice

and smeared it on my lips

And kissed the mother

She tasted herself

Her flesh, her blood

It was heady mixture.

As I bowed down to drink her,

I pulled the daughter closer

And made her suck her other breast

She sucked passionately.

Before I knew

I relegated to the background

Lighting a smoke, I luxuriated in the unfolding scene

It was a pageantry of two slithering snakes

Hissing and kissing

Trying to mate without my seeds.

Hours blushed in their discovery of each other

It was time for me to join the fever

Three of us, swam in murky waters.

©LR

But where

So much I have lost
So much I am loosing
I am sinking
But why is my heart still beating.

I try to hold on to something
But there's nothing.

So void I am from within
As I saunter in melancholic ruins.

I wish to escape
But where
Where will I find myself.

Incestuous showers

It was not the daughter,
But her mother who arrested my thoughts
Everytime I made love to my wife, I saw her.
Blasphemous it was, but I couldn't get over.

And then when she came to stay with us,
I became paranoid.
I maintained distance,
the conversation limited to few lines.

Was she aware, could she sense, I didn't know.
But distracting was her presence

She wasn't extraordinary,
Yet striking was her simplicity.
Was it her ebony eyes, was it her grace
Or was it her dense waves.
I don't know, but she was all that I craved.

Days were blur, nights sheer torture
And then one day
When I returned from work,
I saw her on the terrace,
soaking the showers.

She was a sight
Plastered in sin
Every curve whispered 'come closer'

Stealthily I walked and kept gazing from a distance.
Till our eyes met.
As if struck by a lightening, I went pale.
Smiling, she sauntered towards me,
While I stood rooted.

Cupping my trembling hands she guided me towards the lashing rain.
There we were, drenched

" You thought, I couldn't sense what's in your mind", she teased.
It was so evident.
Saying that, she coated me with mud
I grabbed a handful and smeared her face,
Sliding down her neck, as I reached her breasts
She pushed me on the floor with her naked toe
Before I could register,
She lifted her petticoat and offered her earth

There I was on the floor,
She covering me
I struggled to breathe
But she offered herself aggressively.
I kept exploring till I found her.
She wasn't complaining, neither was I

I stripped her veneer of simplicity
She was a raging fire
extinguishing the lashing drops.

When I offered her my power.
She took him with passionate fervour
I was on fire as she waved her tongue
I tried to break free as I was climaxing
But she grabbed my butt
and pushed me deeper in her crevice
I slackened in her rage
While she gulped every traces

The mud got washed
So did we, in incestuous showers.

Virgin Death

She died a virgin

She had to die

And that's how it was supposed to be

Brothel was her existence

Day and night

Only flesh

Who were they

How many

She had stopped counting

She just spread her legs

Men of every decent.

All ravenous to penetrate

But none could touch her

Except her flesh.

Till she decided, she had to leave

And that was the day 

When she died a virgin.

©LR

Till then

And then it rained
When they met
He had kept his promise

She hugged him and said
You are finally home
Let us take a walk in the corridors of memory
And start from where we had left.

Earlier we used to fight for each other
Now, we fight with each other
Why,
Is it love or mere jealousy.

Why do you go
When you know it's only my shores
Where you will find yourself.

Like always his answers were evasive.
She knew, he will leave again.
Still she clinged to hope.

Maybe someday, that won't be even there anymore.
Till then.

Love isn't me

It was never love
Nor it ever will be.

Like a moth to the fire,
they get lured.
To take unholy dip in erotic verses
And experience the flesh.

They all are the same
brimming with desires.
Some profess love,
Some come to the point.
Without wasting much time

But it can never be love
Because I wasn't meant to be loved.
Maybe.

Wild rose

I was never more alive

Till you smuggled by my side

Our breathes were rhapsody

While the bodies glistened in melody.

You were beyond my fantasy.

As I arched in ecstasy,

You completed the circle, with me.

'Hush', you said

As I whimpered your name,

Come along baby placidly.

For there's more of you,

That I wish to probe

In the wilderness,

where blooms the wild rose.

©LR

Death from you

Tonight when I sleep
With death by my side
I will finally set free
From you.

Don't put the veneer of sorrow
For you were the cause of what I had to undergo
Atleast death won't cheat me.

Don't immerse my ashes
You don't deserve me even in death.

May karma be your destiny.

Some questions, Some answers

I see you
You see me
But the chasm between us widened

I miss you, in echoing silence
So much love I have for you
But will prefer distance
You kill me with your unjustifiable accusations.
Why are you possessive for me
There's even no reason

What are you to me
What am I to you
There's no definition

What is it between us
Some questions...
Some answers...

Everything is a lie

Why is that you still have the capacity to hurt
When you should mean nothing to me
Why do I still cater to your whimsical outbursts.

You justify it as your possessiveness
People are possessive only in love, not in lust.
And that's precisely why we met.

When I fell in love, you took me for granted
And now that I am in a turmoil
You still have no empathy

Right, everything about me is a lie
I keep warming beds to add numbers.
What am I

I gave you the capacity to hurt
I gave it all!
Each of me
What did I get in return?
Accusations

I hoped for you
But now I am through, with you.

Don't ever come back to me.
Because everything is a lie.

The End

©LR

In conversation

Why did you give him to me,
when you were there in the scene...
Maggie asked

Because you were destined, Vicky replied.

I wonder if I have anything left now,
Sunny marked me for life... Maggie said sadly.

I am glad he did, you deserved him, Vicky responded

But the love...
But the hurt...
How will I deal with it, Maggie cried.

If it doesn't hurt it wasn't worth,
You won't come out of it,
Just shift focus...Vicky suggested.

Hmm...How much I am gonna miss him,
he was my liberation from years of shackles
I will never be the same again
But I have to go
Maggie went back to her exile

The smudged vermilion

The amber smoldered on her forehead,

When she looked at me

Between my thighs

I couldn't think sane

I looked down at her 
With blurring vision

Glimmer of sadism was twinkling in her eyes

But that smudged vermilion

Was ultimately my victory
She became mine

©LR

Death is Welcoming

I jumped off the cliff 

Assuming you will be there

But as I plunged deeper,

You were no where

My heart was sinking

My breath was missing

But then death was more welcoming

When I realised you were never there

I was living in an illusion.

©LR

Nothing was a lie

Nothing was a lie
Neither my feelings
Nor my poems.
I fell for you
Which you never realised.

I tried to hurt you
By going ahead with your friend.
But you guys were checking out.
Weren't you.

Still I met you
Why?

My heart cried when I made love to you.
Because I knew it would be our last.

I shouldn't blame you
Should I?

For it was only me and my feelings
I will miss you my dark horse.
Whether you believe it or not.
My love for you is not a lie!

Lost in you

If you were to steal anything from me
what will it be, she asked.

I won't steal anything from you.
I can't.
But would love to soak your fragrance.
Don't know why.
What is it with you
I feel lost, he responded.

Hush baby, don't say a word,
Come closer,
Let me add the missing colors, she whispered.

Never mess with a tigress

"Confession time baby", saying that she tied him to the bed post
And then she took him.

The fury that had been building up inside her, found what had to be destroyed.
And she captured him with such aggression,
He writhed in agonizing pleasure.

"What are you doing woman..."he groaned.
She looked menacingly from his thighs.
He had lost it.

Then she questioned "you have been playing with kittens?
When the tigress only knows what's your meat worth of."
Poor taste baby you have, saying that she took him again.

He pleaded and moaned her name,
but she was relentless.
Don't play with a tigress again, she threatened.

Those Eyes

His cabin was few distant than mine.
All I did see his eyes, everyday, gazing,
Sending a chill down my spine.

Some days, I wished to see beyond those penetrating eyes.
But modesty wrapped a shawl.

Finally, I found those eyes in the cafeteria, smiling.
That was the first time I saw him,
Lean frame with a french cut,
complexion of the setting sun.

As I tried to register his presence,
he sauntered towards me.
Gulping my breath, I remained rooted,
Clueless about his intention.
He sat across me, while lighting a cigarette.
From the dense smoke, I saw him,
So close, yet so distant.

Suddenly he said "let's go"...
And I followed him like I was in a trance.
As we climbed our thoughts to the terrace,
The silence between us echoed every second.

We reached where we weren't supposed to.
Time was silent, so were we.

Then he looked at me
And said "your eyes, they speak...we had to meet".
Saying this he came closer,
And whispered "I wish to make love to your eyes,
Quite an engaging story they convey"!

Fragments

Memories refuse to fade

After all these years.

Why.

Everytime I see your frame, tears roll by

The heart still misses your warmth.

Seven colours with you

And lifelong death.

Chained to memories

I could never be the same again.

A part of me died with you.

Now I live in fragments.

©LR

Flames of Desire

The rituals seemed never ending

And I was becoming restless

For my hourly breast feeding

The hardening of my breasts

The increasing discomfort

And when the milk started staining my layer

I escaped from the chaos

To relieve my soreness

And then I found him,

Fagging by the balcony

Who was he

Maybe one of the guests

I didn't care, nonetheless

For when he looked into my eyes

I knew, I found my prey

His eyes slipped to my smudged drape

And he stopped right there

Sweats of apprehension glistened on his forehead

There we were

In the agonizing undercurrents.

Boldly inching closer,

I dragged him by the collar

And pressed my heaving bust

On his trembling chest

While he grappled to free me from chains

He kissed me with his ashened taste

By the balcony

Against the backdrop of the wedding

With mantras being chanted

With the conches blowing

We stripped each other

With his power throbbinge between my legs.

But first I ensured to relieve my soreness

And he did, with meticulous attention

To each of my fountain

Sometimes merging them

For the ultimate taste

As the sound of the rituals ending drifted in the air

I knew it was time for us to begin

Our rituals.

©LR

Strangers

You were a stranger
And then we came closer
I poured my heart to you expecting nothing
But your restless libro only sought my flesh
Whereas I felt deep for you.

And then crept the fissures
Now we are back to strangers.

The Kiss

If you kiss my neck with love
I will steal a kiss from your heart.

But if you kiss my neck with lust
Boy you don't even realise what you are messing with.