If Ever

I won't hold on to you

If you ever leave

I won't cling to memories

Even

I will let you go

Whenever 

And wherever

That doesn't mean I didn't love you

Ever

For my love for you

Was true

And if, it couldn't hold you

Nothing would have, 

Ever

I won't seek explanations

I won't cry over the ashes

I will simply collect my pieces

And move on

And if ever, I write a chapter

On us

My life with you

And my life, without you

I will keep it blank

For my love for you

Is as pure as infinity.

©LR

When I love

It isn't easy

To stay without you

Unable to access you

Knowing you are with your family

They need you

More than me

But I managed

Keeping myself preoccupied

But you, never left my thoughts

I do love you

More than my heart can hold

More than my verses can pour

Love for me, isn't about a sense of possession

Or being possessive for you

Love is, allowing each other individualistic space

To breathe 

And thrive

With the realization that

We will be always there

For each other

I am a part of you, now

And together we will charter

Our whole.

©LR

Finding self

Where is my trajectory

And why these mazes

I wish for a breather

But I cannot escape

Life : a blessing

But I am an entangled mess

I have survived 

Unfathomable nightmares

I wonder why

Was this my destiny

Was it my karma

Why this agonizing ache

How long will I fight

At times, I ignore

But ignorance isn't easy

Always

I wrap depression

I let the tears find a reason

Nothing helps

None will help

I have to charter my destiny

Somehow

Somewhere.

©LR

Missing you

I miss those moments

When my laughter used to be you

I miss that air

When my breath survived on your essence

I miss your energy

That sparkled my mundanity

I miss you

It's just a day

And I, already miss you

You being the most unexpected chapter

Where did you come

And where will we go

I haven't envisaged

But now we are here

Somewhere

I fear losing us

I wish you to be mine

Only mine

Forever.

©LR

The gift of shirt

What should I give you

Before I leave, he asked

Gift me your your shirt

The one you sleep in, she replied

I want the used one

Your sweat in it

I won't wash it

I will keep it,

As it is

The aroma of your chassis

Will be my company

When you are gone

My dewdrops will find your texture

To absorb my anguish

Your shirt will be my only tangible memoir

I will drape it

To feel you

To recapture your presence

You are already etched in my heart

With your shirt

I will feel us

Still breathing together.

©LR

Romance de passion

They strolled

Arm in arm

Towards the chaotic sound 

Of the crashing waves

The air was humid

Her breath was laboured

For it was her third trimester

One more month

For a tiny hand to join them

He sensed her ache

Scooping her in his arms

He carried her along the oceanic bed

She hugged him tenderly

Their beats, blended into one

He laid her on the sand

And caressed her

Her swollen breasts

And the tiny buds

Pressing against her fabric

Were deliciously inviting

He nuzzled his nose

On her cleavage

While gingerly tweaking her nipples

She moaned

The cacophonous waves adding glory to the ambience

He slid his hand inside her pantie

Her juices was soaking the sand beneath her

He looked at her

She was somewhere

Lost in the infinity

He knew, it will be months

Before he could insert his strength

In her abyss

So he put her legs on his shoulders

And went down on his knees

To calm her brimming desires.

©LR

Of what once was

There might come a phase

When there will be a you

And I 

And nothing to say

We might have separated

In our individualistic ways

But we will stay

In memories

With the gnawing ache...

And with pieces

Of each other

What you mean to me

The ink of the night cannot write

For I have inked you

In my heart

Melancholy will drape my soul

When we are no longer together

My ladened heart will seek you

Only you

For, I will still love you

Even when you aren't mine.

©LR

Only you, my love

I love you

For than I love myself, he asserted

How can you say so, she questioningly smiled

I start my day with you

And I pull the curtains 

With you, in my eyes

Subconsciously, you manifest in my dreams

I feel your warmth

When I rise, to the morning tide

You never leave me

You have become an intrinsic chapter of my life

Even if I breathe with you

Day and night

Yet I wish to rewrite the pages

With you, my love

What are you to me

I do not have verses

All that I need is you

With your beats

Resonating with mine.

©LR

My mirror image

You are insatiable, he whispered

Tell me something which I don't know, she replied

They were on the floor

She was resting on him

Her beats pounding

Her flesh sweltering

Since she was riding him

You are actually a lioness, he concluded

I am

I know that, she proclaimed

Don't say anything else

I want to relish you

Even in this blissful silence

When the concupiscence is satiated

When the voidness of my being is permeated

With your august presence

You aren't just my desire

You are my mirror image

In you

With you

I have found myself, again.

©LR

Undying love

You don't even know

What you mean to me

I may not express

But deep within

I love my destiny

The laughter which you have breathed into my life

The tears of joy

Which spills from my eyes

Everything starts with you

My love

With my head on your heart

I wish to depart

From you

If ever

And yes

You are my love

I have waited for

All these years

With a prayer in my heart

Till death do us apart.

©LR

Conflicting emotions

Why is it so difficult for me

To say those words

It reaches my lips

But I suppress it within

Why was it so easy for you

Why is it so aching for me

Is it really love

Or my maternal instinct

That I care for you

I feel your fortuitous presence

I miss you, in your silence

You are a dream

That cannot be true

For I wasn't even waiting for you

What took you so long

I don't have any lyrics

To compose another song

Why are you creating moments

For I know

You will leave eventually

Just like others

A pang of sadness seeps in

As I realise

We were never meant to be

Even though we share baffling similarities

Both being tied by individual threads of matrimony

All we can have is, companionship

How long

I don't wish to know

For I am broken and disillusioned

Already

It will hurt

To let you go

It will hurt further

If we continue

At times, I wish to withdraw into my solitude

But you have already opened

The window of hope.

©LR

Forbidden Desire

Tilting her head back

She laughed

It was the laughter of life

Her lips apart

With luminous eyes

I kept looking at her

She didn't realize

The effect it had on me

I smiled along pleasantly

But behind my pretence

I couldn't hide my thirst

How I wished to nuzzle her neck

Biting her flesh

While she clawed on my flesh

Marking me, with rawness

I desired her

Everywhere

Everyday

She enkindled feelings which were buried, somewhere

She wasn't my woman

Yet she becoming mine

With every fleeting day

I tried to catch her essence

In our stolen moments

So there she was

With her arched neck

And here was I 

With my lingering yearning

Of stripping her marrow

Someday.

©LR

An addiction like you

It will become addictive

Once we meet, she said

I want you to be my addiction

I want us to be addictive

In time to come, he stressed

Do you realize how tormenting it will be

If we can't meet frequently

How will we deal with that agony

So close

Yet divorced by social appearance, she reasoned

Now that I have found you

I don't wish to lose you

Under any circumstances

Be my woman

And lemme eclipse those shadows

That distances you from me

Addiction you may say

But what's life without an addition like you, he concluded.

©LR

Some other day

I won't let a single thread on your flesh

Will parade you naked

All over the house

And take you

Everywhere

I will rule

And make you my slave

Drag you on my lap

And suckle your pendulous breasts

Till your buds bloom

To my taste

I will slither my fingers

To your moistness

And play

Till you look into my eyes

And say, I want your power 

There

I am not ready yet

So I order you to saunter

Your jiggling posterior

Those thundering thighs

The crescent moon on your waist

You were a sight!

I shove you on the wall

Clutching your tresses, as my reins

I nudge my turgidity

Into your cleavage

You beg me to enter

I pull you around

And say, you will die

But some other day!

©LR

Only my prey

You are one dangerous woman

Once you mark

The victim craves

Only for your flesh, he groaned

She was straddling him

With her tresses grazing on his chest

I know that

And I ensure, my prey

Doesn't stray anywhere else, she laughed

I am possessive

For I put my soul into the act

Even if it's not love

And lust, being a midway

So if you have tasted my blood

You will be able to differentiate

Between a tigress and the masses

That stealthily move in the forest

If you ever think of drifting away.

©LR

Signaturing my soul

I had a reputation to maintain

Being the most popular student

I was somewhat cocksure

About my power

Behind closed doors

But it was her

The woman I adored

As did others

Boys, ogled at her

Girls were impressed

While colleagues envied

The way she carried herself 

With sensual elegance

Her diaphanous layers

With sleeveless blouses

The way she tied her saree 

Below her waist

With a teasing glimspe, of her navel

She taught us Biology

And my raging libido

Learnt something else

I knew the boys were equally mesmerised

So when she called me into the teacher's room

On the pretext of discussing classroom matters

My heart was in my mouth

She was alone

Amongst a pile answers scripts

I took a chair opposite to her

And tried to focus on the words

Slipping out of her lips

I know...she commented

Without looking up

I was stupified unable to comprehend

She looked straight into my eyes

I know boy, 

You are pretty obvious

The moment lingered between us

For few seconds

Till she let out a cry in pain

Breaking my reverie

I realised she had hurt herself in the chair

I fell down on my knees

Cradling her leg, on my lap

I caressed her injury

She stiffened to my touch, initially

But I continued 

Gradually I became aware of her leg

Against my thudding chest

The moment when she touched my heart

I was choked with brimming emotions

There she was

The woman I adored, yearned, visualized

So close to me

Her essence filling my being

But I couldn't touch the soul

Gently, I placed her leg on the floor

And walked away

That moment between us

Withstanding the age barrier and ethical conduct

Pierced my heart

I realised it wasn't my lust 

It was my love and respect for her

For which my conscience pricked

I never saw her after that day

She resigned

Signaturing my heart.

©LR

In your luxury

I have appeased myself 

With acts of self indulgence

Whenever I have read you

Fantasized you

The mystical aura that surrounds you

Has a lure so dense

That it agitates my senses

I crave for the luxuriance of your flesh

To put a pearl of my seed

In your navel

And watch it swirling 

In your dimple

I wish to run my fingers

Along the misty linear line

That stretches from your navel

To your meadows

And stop there

Soaking the journey

While caressing your trembling curves

I wish to take you, in leisure someday

For you are a beauty

To be worshipped

Amidst nature.

©LR