But where

I ran
I kept running along the shores.
The wind struggled to stop but I kept running against her.
With my heart thudding, with my breath diminishing,
I knew I couldn't proceed anymore.

But I ran.
For I had to drown somewhere.
To erase the pain that has been stifling.
Was it the salt in the wind or my blinding tears.
I didn't care
My soul was dead yet beats resonated.

I ran from myself
I ran from the earthly flesh.
I ran from life
I ran but where