Maybe you were meant to be

In my life 

Not in my heart 

Maybe my love couldn't hold you back

Maybe we were meant to be together

So many possibilities 

Still in those maybes

I hoped for us.

©LR

I've only memories of you

And nothing else

My feelings extinguished

The day you chose someone else

But still I've memories of you

Which I weave

To keep our phase alive

I finger through the bygones

To see you smile

For I had earned you

Even if you belong to someone else now.

© LR

 I still speak to you

Just that you can't hear anymore

I still read you

Just that you don't feel anymore

I still wait for you

Why...

Some simple questions

Entangled in the web of feelings. 

©LR

 

She lifted her saree

And sat on my phallus

I looked at her mystified

She was my JNU batchmate

We did our Masters together

Even if we had never interacted then

Over the years we spoke on ritualistic birthday calls

She had blossomed gracefully

From a svelte figure

To a woman of sensual elegance

She had an irrepressible aura

Which lured men of all age

And I was one of them

Of all the women I bedded

She was the woman I yearned for

The raw sexuality she oozed

When draped in six yards

She fulfilled my layered wishes

Which my wife never attempted

I was cautious not to reveal my feelings

Even though I maintained decorum

While conversing with her

But my flesh craved for her's

Like no one else

And then we met

I was in her city work related

She came to visit me

My heart was in my mouth

When she entered the room

Her simple yet striking aura

Accentuated by the saree

Every pore of my body was raging

After the pleasantaries

And discussion about our batchmates

We fell silent

The ambience was charged with undercurrents

She walked towards me wordlessly

And kissed me

I looked searchingly at her eyes

She smiled and said I know....

And then she lifted her saree

And she rode....

She came

She conquered

And left.

©LR

 Sex was staple diet for us 

We indulged whenever we got a chance

Either when her parents were out of town

Or when my friends understood the need for our privacy 

On one such occasion 

When her parents were attending a family function 

She stayed back on some pretext 

Eating, resting and making out

We indulged day in

Day out 

But after a point it became monotonous 

The urge to have some adventure 

Became dominant 

That night when the chaos thinned 

And the lights faded 

We went to the staircase

We both had a round of shots

With our spirits high

We made out there

Her soft moans echoed in that pin drop silence

She came

But I wasn't done with her

I pushed her on four legs

And entered her from rear 

While stifling her mouth

For I had anticipated her pain

She bit my hand 

And tried to break free

But I ripped her tightness 

Till I was satiated

Till I seeded her 

Till everything became silent once again. 

©LR

 There are relationships that start by chance 

And ours was such

We came across on Instagram 

He was lingering in my DM, for years

Which I don't entertain 

But serendipity had other plans

I responded to him courteously 

He heaped his libidinous desires, upfront 

Another one, I assumed

And didn't give him credence

Weeks passed to months

We exchanged our lives experiences 

Sometimes under the starry nights

Sometimes under the fields of his horizon 

When did my feelings graduate to love

I couldn't fathom

From morning wishes

To late night indulgences 

We continued, unabated 

The fear of losing this enlivening phase 

Always loomed

For I knew, nothing lasts forever

He attested his feelings were too strong

To fade in the winds of change

Putting me on a pedestal

He affirmed me to his forever muse

Misunderstandings were elementary 

But then we resolved 

For some bonding are not contingent 

Only on sex

Six months coursed 

His feelings started to fade

He drifted to greener pastures 

I sensed we have reached a dead end

So I withdrew 

Carrying his essence 

Forever in my heart

Some beginning have no endings

And some endings 

Don't wish for another beginning.

©LR

 I was adroit in unhooking bras

Both girls and women

Of every size and shapes 

And then I fiddled with her's

I grappled for sometime 

Unable to free her pendulous assets

She smiled

And did the honours 

Her boobs literally fell

On my seasoned palms

I instantly pounced to suckle her matronly essence

But what caught my eye

Was the mole on her left breast

Around her brownish areola 

A dot in the universe

A sensual image

I proceeded to her right breast

There nestled on her nipple 

Was a miniature one

An artist's homage 

I clutched both the breasts in my hands 

And nibbled research each of them

With devotion 

Till I tasted her honeyed essence.

©LR

 She was sir's wife 

The first time I saw her

I was like 'this can't be his wife'

Sir, the typical pot bellied officer 

And his wife was too hot to fit the bill

As she stepped out of the house

With her son 

I kept stealing glances at her

Thoroughly distracted, I tried to focus on driving 

I looked forward to see her

And with her ritualistic visit for monthly shopping

My delight knew no bounds

She carried herself with aplomb in westerns

But the day she draped saree 

The glimpse of her heavy bosom 

And the curvaceous waist 

Sent my blood raging

My wife bore the brunt of my intense cravings

She remained joyful 

For she thought it was my love for her

I remained in cloud nine 

I fantasized about the woman 

I used to drive the car for. 

©LR

 I can't wait to hug you

To feel your expanse

Cushioning my breasts 

To feel your beats 

In symphony with mine

I want you more

Than you can think of

I want you closer to my heart 

To feel my love. 

©LR

 It didn't hurt me then

When you used to share your sexual escapades 

But it will hurt me now 

If you go ahead with someone else

Why this transition of feelings 

Why this gnawing ache

Coz I feel for you

More than you could have imagined 

You made me bare

Not just my flesh 

But my heart

I let you

For I couldn't deny anything to you, my love

Even if you leave

I will stay here

Cocooned with my words

It's safe here

Where feelings evaporate

All that remains

Is my elementary heart. 

©LR

 Not a single day goes

When I don't think of you

Every second, your thoughts overwhelm

Why doesn't my mind accept 

You have left abruptly 

Leaving me drenched with your memories

Not a single day goes

When I don't browse through our exchanges

I reread them

And compose poems

In the memory of us 

To keep us alive 

Even if we have drifted apart

You moved ahead with seasons

While I remained in the season 

Of us.

©LR

 You are not meant for love

You are meant only for sex

I feel the raw feminine energy simmering in you

That needs to be controlled 

You, the obliging soul

Yield to whatever I say

I make you my slave 

I lacerate your sumptuous flesh

I pound you till your legs shiver 

But deep down I know

You can take more than my rage 

I might fizzle

But you

You are a sexual volcano 

Always boiling down there

You are a rarity, woman 

It's difficult to quench your oceanic thirst

Maybe someday I will share you

With others

And watch you being worshipped 

As a goddess.

©LR

 She slept in my arms 

She was at peace

So was I

She found her shore in my arms

I found my ocean in hers

She was a beatific sight

So pure was her essence 

I knew she felt safe, with me 

I realised she was the one

I secured her tightly in my arms

Knowing this pregnant moment

I will cherish for years to come. 

©LR

 The taste of you

As I relish 

I will make you taste yourself

When I roll the ice

Betwixt your clitoris

And smear it all over your curvy flesh

Gliding from your juicy valley 

To your navel's depths 

Encircling the circumference of your breasts

Till it reaches your pout 

You have one of a kind 

The luscious lower one

And then I will make you taste yourself, woman.

©LR

 Even if you push me towards someone else

I won't 

It's not that we are bound 

By forever togetherness

I can't share you

Nor wish to be shared 

As per your eccentric tastes

I am wired with emotions

You observe only flesh

In abundance

I was neither yours 

Nor you were mine

We were just a phase

But before we could solidify what we had composed

You drifted to someone else

Does it hurt 

No

For there were no expectations 

We knew the purpose of ritualistic exchanges

You grew over me

While I grew with you

Waiting...

For the day to culminate

But you left with excuses 

And I am back to my wired cocooned self. 

©LR

 I covered her with the sheet

As she lay nude

Enervated to the core 

Her pulsating heart beat

Her sweat sheathed skin 

She lay lifeless beside me

After our romping sexacapade 

I checked the hickies on my flesh

It hurt 

For she had bit me

When I ravaged her

Against her wishes

Stop, she pleaded 

But a blind film descended on my eyes, then 

When she refused to surrender to my wishes

But I knew she had this kink

To be raped 

By her man

So I had volatile sex with her

Fulfilling not just her kink

But mine as well. 

©LR

 It's not about sex

I don't want that

It's about intimacy 

Being closer to you

Where you are the warmest 

Where flows your purity

The space between your breasts

That's where I want to be

To heal 

To feel love

Which I have been deprived of

I want to be in that space 

Between your twin assets 

Where none were

Except me

That's my kind of intimate sex. 

©LR

 You walk on the terrace

Naked 

Soaking the zephyr 

I watch you mesmerised 

My moon's silhouette 

Under moonlit skies 

So engaging becomes the ambience 

I continue to weave poems on my mind

Imprinting your essence

Inhaling your fragrance 

You, oblivious to the chaos on my mind

I pull the satin sheets

To cover you

To seal us 

I know there's no one in the horizon 

Coz I own the land

And no one lives nearby 

Still I don't wish to share you

With the breeze 

Caressing your curvaceous contours 

I want you to be all mine

Satin sheets and your flesh

Wrapped in me. 

©LR

 Your body is my drug 

Every curve of yours

Every mole sprinkled all over

How I wish you get lost 

In those caliginous tresses of yours

How I yearn to consume the musk of your being

To be yours 

In flesh 

And in spirits

You, my lady

Is my ultimate aphrodisia.

©LR

मैं पागल हो जाऊंगी 

ऐसे मत करो

But I wasn't listening 

As I put her leg on my shoulder

And started thumping her 

I kept looking at her 

As her eyes rolled up

And started heaping profanities 

In between her animalistic cries and moans 

But that only escalated my fury

With are bobbies bouncing wildly 

And every pore of her's coated with dew drops 

She was a sight

I bent down to lick her nipples

I sucked them so hard

That she almost gasped 

She pushed me back on the bed

And said अब मैं तेरे को जन्नत दिखाती हूं 

And she rode

To victory.

©LR

अब छोरो बाबा, काम भी तो करना है, she pleaded

As I rolled over her saree 

Not allowing her to drape 

My parents weren't in town

So I had to make the maximum with my maid

It had been months of torture 

Seeing her ample cleavage

As her arched derriere 

She was aware of my intentions

And played along

So as soon my parents left

I carried her to the bed in my arms

Throwing her carelessly

I lifted her petticoat 

While she was still dressed 

She was hot down there

And tasted of salty essence 

I gulped her fervently 

Her moans escalated 

As she clutched the sheets for her survival

I rolled her over

And commanded her to be my bitch

As she posed 

I entered her from rear

भईया दुख रहा है, चोरों दो, she cried in agony 

But I plunged deeper into her

Till she accomodated me

I released all my pious offerings inside her

We rested in each other's arms

For a while

And when she started getting dressed

I rolled over her saree

For another session.

©LR

 We had sex

While sharing cigarettes

We came across each other

On the office terrace

The reserved space for smokers like us 

He was fumbling for his matchbox 

I offered mine

We exchanged glances

Acknowledging the help

We stood there for a while

Inhaling and exhaling 

Till we were done 

We walked towards the lift

But I stopped midway 

He looked back

Trying to decipher my emotion at play

I walked closer to him

We both reeked of burnt ashes

I kissed him gently

He didn't mind

I pushed my tongue into the confines of his mouth

He bit my lips

We stripped and had sex

While having ciggerate 

It wasn't an earth shattering experience 

But a desire so impulsive and whimsical 

After getting dressed

We left for our respective office floor 

We kept bumping at each other intermittently

But never acknowledged each other's presence. 

©LR

 I can't think of any other emotion 

Other than love for you

You held my hand at a time

When I was lost

In my chaotic silence 

I can only think of love, for you

For there's nothing more pristine than love

Even if it's one sided

I feel content 

I found you deserving of my inherent warmth

Seasons will fade

Our bonding will run it's course 

You will drift to some other shores 

But I will remain there where I was

With love

Why, you will ask 

Coz you entered my life 

When I believed I was bereft of love

But your presence reinforced my faith 

That I am still full of love

And will continue to be so. 

©LR

 I will open those lips 

With my fingers 

A little more

Then it had been exposed 

Or experienced

And then push the girth of my power

Inside that pouty crevice of yours

You will choke on my size 

Trying to break free

But I will clutch your tresses 

And pull you closer to me

Till all of me

Is inside you 

Till all of my seeds

Is soaked in you 

And yes there's no escape from me.

©LR

 Tonight when my body is on fire

Still I am seething with desires

For you

To make love to me

When flesh is scorching with temperature 

When I am vulnerable

When I can't perform

Still I want you

To dive into my inferno

To get seared 

Along with me 

I crave for you, my love

When my flesh is coated with millions of gems

When my throat is parched for your phallus 

When my moans are like the cries of the tigress 

Wounded, but still dangerous!

©LR

 Not a single day goes

When I don't think of you

Every second, you are with me

Why doesn't my mind accept 

You have left abruptly 

Leaving me drenched with your memories

Not a single day goes

When I don't browse through our exchanges

I reread them

And compose poems

In the memory of us 

To keep us alive 

Even if we have drifted apart

You moved ahead with seasons

I remained in the season 

Where it was only us.

©LR

Why have you become so silent, he asked me 

Coz there's nothing left in me, she replied 

You can't be bereft of feelings, he contested

When feelings bring sufferance 

I prefer to remain barren, she replied 

But I am here, why do you feel despondent, he assured

You are here for now 

You won't be forever 

But my love seeks you forever

Coz I feel for you like none other, she replied 

She hugged him steadfastly 

Till she could absorb his fragrance 

And left

Forever.

©LR

 

Don't leave, she begged

Crying inconsolably

He hugged her tightly

His chest thudding with emotions

I know there's no future between us, she said

But the beautiful moments we created now

I can't simply live with that

For the rest of my life

He remained silent

For he felt choked

He didn't want to leave her

She was the dream woman

He had craved for months

And then they finally met

What transpired in bed

Wasn't just volatile sex

But something beyond words

As they lay spent in silence

They felt connected

A sense of solace in each other

Like ying and yang

They melted

It was time to depart

They both knew it will be the first and last

For they were separated by states

She hugged him and wept

It wasn't love

It wasn't even pure lust

It was inexplicable

Even if he was much younger to her

They were tied by an inexplicable bond

She knew he would move on

Whereas she will choose to live in solitude

His shirt got soaked

So did his heart

He realised then

There will be none like her

She was different

Finally, they parted their ways.

©LR

 

The options were many

A few girls of my age

But I lusted for my landlady

I was the only male tenant

I did have the looks

One was dying to seduce

Even though I ignored her overtures

For I desired my landlady

She was fine wine

Amongst bottles of beers

Whenever I spoke to her

I made a mockery of myself

By stammering

Her aura was intimidating

Her sensuality, captivating

My eyes lingered over her seasoned breasts

My heart wanted to caress her curvy waist

And those cascading tresses

Like midnight they enveloped my being

Sometimes I ended up checking her WhatsApp dp

Was she aware of my feelings

Maybe...

She burnt me like none other

How I wish to feel her once

Before I vacate her setting.

©LR

 We continued our amorous dalliance 

Till she came pregnant 

With her husband

I had just shifted to Delhi

Once while I was locking my apartment 

That's when I first saw her

With a bucket full of clothes

The pallu of her saree tucked in her voluptuous waist

Her melon sized breasts wriggling

Under her flimsy layer

The sweat on her body

Trickling from her neck

To those cradled on her navel 

I got an instant boner

Weeks passed 

We kept crossing each other's path

Smiles were exchanged 

Under the veil of lust

It was one of those days 

When the rain God's conspired

I ran to the terrace to collect my clothes 

She was there

Drenched, with her clothes

I invited her to my apartment 

She sat on the bed, dripping wet

I could see through her diaphanous layers

Luxuriance of flesh

I offered her a towel

She stood in front of the mirror to dry herself 

She caught me staring 

क्या देख रहे हो बबुआ, she asked

And invited me to come closer

Gathering my courage 

I went near her

Eyes interlocked in the mirror

That's where we started stripping each other. 

Next History!

©LR